|Perl: the Markov chain saw|
It screams alright, very loudly in fact, you just have to want to hear it. At least that's how it was for me.
When I was a little kid, I was always messing around with computers, mind you I wasn't hacking everything in sight like some kids I knew, I almost wish I had though, I find that those people know a lot more than me right now. As I grew up, I had many different career path's before me, the two most prominant were woodworking and computer programming. Part of me really wanted to go with woodworking, I loved creating things. The other part (guess I have two parts :)) told me that I can create just as much with computers, and I can still use woodworking as a hobby. So I went to college to become a programmer.
After about a year I was really frustrated with everything, programming classes didn't seem to apply to what I wanted to do with computers. So I asked myself what exactly I wanted to do. What I learned from that was I wanted to use my artistic ability with programming to create things, what I didn't know, the only thing I could think of were games. At this time I was messing around with creating user interfaces for a Worldgroup based BBS (for those of you who haven't heard of Worldgroup, it was a BBS software package that provided both terminal emulation and a Windows client for graphical displays, much like modern webpages, only a lot simpler). I didn't realize I was already working with something that fit what I wanted to do.
Classed continued...and I was getting more and more frustrated by them.
My step-father, when I was griping about classes, said that once I get into the real world, I don't have to work on projects like I did in class, that there are so many different things you can do with a programming degree. That was an epiphany for me, I suddenly realized that I already had a job that I really liked (web development for the university) where I could be artistically creative and still code interesting things. And this was all sitting before me, I just wasn't seeing it.
I guess all I can really say about it is just stop and look around at what you are doing in life. If it doesn't feel right, it's not, don't try to make it right. If you don't know what else to do, explore your other interests, you may have missed something that was sitting right in front of you.
"I'm sure Edison turned himself a lot of colors before he invented the lightbulb." - H.S.