An observation: this is the first node of yours I've read that holds even a hint of an admission that you aren't perfect and have come here for self-improvement.

Good. That's what this site is for and that's why most monks are here. To find help, to offer help, and to help ourselves by helping others.

We aren't here to stroke your ego when you show how much more you know than someone else (or think you have.) This isn't a Perl game show and reputation isn't a prize. Upvotes aren't something you win through one-upmanship.

Advice: Don't try to prove yourself. Be humble. Show respect. Help others. Expect to learn something.