Thank you very much for your input Karl, and those thanks also extend to everyone else who has given input throught this meditation. It always helps to talk these things out, and as I have no one else to discuss these kinds of issues with, I really appreciate everyone being here and giving there honest opinions and experiences

There are points here made especially by Athanasius, Your Mother, Chroba and karlgoethebier that have added real value toward my enlightenment, as well as other honourable mentions of which I cannot upvote I'm afraid as I am only allowed two votes. Of course this does not solve my problem by any means and any more comments are of course welcome!!

In a short and intermediate conclsuion - It would appear that many suggestion of what one should know and how one should go about learning have highlighted my naivety as I expected they would, so this has at the very least pointed me in the right/next direction of studies and I couldn't ask for more from you guys and gals, so thank you all.